britches:

…You know what I mean? Like I just looked at a guy’s profile who I was like so in lust with when I was 18. He was in his mid-twenties, a professional sport player, a bit ‘closeted’, and not ready to commit to anything. And now I was looking at his FaceStalkBook photos and thinking, “ewww, you’re actually a bit ferrel” - and don’t get me wrong, it’s not in a bitter, scorned way. It’s just he’s actually not attractive. Like if I had had a guide dog at the time then that guide dog would now be fired for a serious and dangerous error in judgement. He’s a nice guy, blah blah blerg, but for all the glitz and glamour that he ha(s)d attached to him, he’s actually not cute, and lacks a little thing called a personality. And I don’t know if I feel proud of myself for having realised this, or embarrassed of myself that I didn’t realise five years ago.